It's been a really rough week!! Looking like its time to really consider moving, although I don't feel ready. I wanted to wait a bit. But I did a spread to gain insight.

Made this up:
1. What should I be looking for in a place:

Strength - A solid secure place, I feel physically/mentally at ease, where I can go to charge my battery. Perhaps needing some work/gentle touch and some patience. Don't be too wild or hasty in making a decision.

2. How will I know its right:

Justice - It will have balanced options (price, size, ect). The landlord is a very clear business professional. After weighting the pro's and con's I feel at harmony with the choice.

3. Things to consider:

Nine of Pentacles - I need independence, my space and privacy. I've considered a roommate, but I am probably better alone. No apartments with lots of people. Find a place that has a yard (which agrees with the strength card background). I love being outdoors!

4. Is it a good time? Or should I wait?

The Emperor - Could signify a person who I can get advice from. Not really sure who that is though! Perhaps its telling me not to be too stubborn or hot headed. I am moving away from a controlling, dominant, overbearing personality - my mothers new husband. I live with them and he see's himself as a ruler of the roost and has made it clear that I am not welcome anymore.

5. Will I move soon?

Two of Wands - Choices: Am I the 9P? Can I deal with the Emperor much longer? As far as time frame, since its a 2 moving is more of a planning stage about my future to see what the world has to offer. Do I wait for the boat (its getting engine/canvas work done) or do I find a real residence?

6. Outcome of moving:

Death - A new chapter/transformation. Put the past behind me, let go of the unhealthy dynamics of the house. It maybe hard but things will get better.

Clarify: Moving to the boat

1. Pro's - Page of cups - Be like a teenager, avoid responsibility (no gas bills). Emotionally it will feel good being on the water and getting daily messages from nature. I will be able to slow down and regroup, using creative problem solving to develop a plan.

2. Con's
Eight of cups - Its a short term fix for an inevitable problem. I need to go find a place I can call home. Can't be a wanderer forever. I will be alone and not as distracted by the moving process and be forced to deal with my emotional disappointments from the home situation. Probably won't be the good time I think I will have.

3. Outcome of moving to the boat for a bit: King of pentacles: Get to spend time on my castle, complete with a garden (as pictured). I would have more pentacles (money) if I did this so it is more practical. I will have a better plan.

4. Outcome of moving to a property: The Devil - I am probably too crazy right now to make this choice. Maybe I will find myself attached in bad deal because I am in such a worst case scenario state of mind. A dishonest person might sense my desperation to get out and get me over my head. I could be tempted to overspend since I am in such a rush.

Perhaps I should be looking for the strength to calm down and make the right decision for my future to ensure financial success. Calming down and going to the boat makes the best sense financially, I just need remember its temporary and to save money.